What am I Running for?


Well I have so many thoughts that running inside my head. Yes, they are. Somehow I know too many question had risen from those thoughts, and when it about to came out, I realized I couldn't asked it, not to anyone. No, not because those are disqualified, but, well, I just can't drive it direct into what answer I was once looking for.

Weird, isn't it?

Or maybe just stupid enough?

... my fave answer for myself in every question that crossed the line is only, "I don't know,". Yeah, well, not really don't know what to answer, but even myself cannot recognize what things I am questioning about, in other hand, it is important for my basic knowledge. I have learned so many things about what formal education taught in curriculum. I have followed it all, but still it doesn't enough.

Damn it.

What am I running for?

What am I trying to get to?

... or did I just miss-spelled?

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