My Words My Melody

Well, everybody learns. Everybody try to be someone better. But some of those everybody sees learning as a stage to be someone else. While the truth is, you can't be someone else, and you must not be someone else for being better. You only need to believe in yourself that you are being better everyday, every second. Why? Because your life is full of blessings, and blesses makes you being someone grateful, and grateful makes you being more special.

Ketika setiap anak manusia hidup karena dituntut orang tua untuk menjadi "seseorang" dengan standar yang tidak pernah diubah sejak dulu kala, maka sama saja dengan membuat orang-orangan salju dan memaksanya bertahan dalam bentuknya di bawah sinar matahari siang hari. Tapi apa yang bisa anak lakukan? Mereka tetap anak orang tuanya, dan secara alamiah tanpa disadari mereka akan memperlakukan anaknya kelak sama seperti apa yang di alaminya sekarang. Lalu, di manakah yang namanya rasa percaya dalam keluarga? Di manakah yang namanya kasih sejati dalam keluarga? Di manakah semuanya itu? Bahkan aku pun tak sampai hati menanyakannya pada orang tuaku. Aku tak punya rasa tega untuk mendengar jawaban mereka.

Have you ever talking about secret side? Just anything that related to someone's private personality? Well, secret side means hidden treasure, the only thing, which each human has, that makes you different from anybody else. That 'treasure' means no one compares . Let's call it as treasure now. In origin, treasure filled with your true self, filled with secret power, imagination, spectacular abilities, and pure heart. But in someone else might be filled with another, that define the notion difference . Treasure was never given to make each of us like demon, but it has a bad side too. It used to called inner monster . Have you heard don't fight yourself, but learn your inner monster ? Inner monster isn't evil, but it's a kind of original defend mode system that human have to protect themselves, their mind, their heart, even to protect their treasure. Somehow people would just let anybody knows about their treasure and their inner monster. How? People tell it ...

When I have done enough with everything, the fixed answer has revealed.

I have my own privacy. But I don't have any space for it. I am never allowed to have it. I wonder what is my fault so I can't have it. I have faced so many bad things in life. I made it, but sometimes I failed. I would've cry if I have just a moment. But in fact, there are always be another thing waits for me to be done. I haven't found someone match with me. I never think I deserve it. Just, too much unseen things that I think no one ever realized I've had this far. -Me La Dorca

Bala Tentara dan Balada Cinta.

"He smiled at me, and he continued the song, ' ...it might not a bad thing to fall in love with me. . ' then he kissed my smile. At the moment I knew that I fell for the right man." -"Arvena : The Oldest of The Twelves"   *coming soon*

I am mad. Mad to everyone. I am down. Broken inside. I want to burn everything. Let all black. I fell for guys I realized I shouldn't fell for. I fell in love which burn me at the end. I fell and this is for, I don't know how much I have fell for no reason. I fell and let myself die for anybody else. I'm wide awake for nothing I hurt myself without mercy. I wrecked all walls down. I let so many people in just to crash me down. I speak to mymind much but I can't speak it out. I fell for nothing. I hurt for nothing. I wrecked for nothing. I am nothing but real.

It smels like a burn woods when I found that still people doesn't have same house with the other. It looks like a dark night when I realized there's no place left for people out there. It feels like suicide when I knew that those things happened.

Maybe it is true that I am friends with lot of boys whom was really strange for me. Maybe it is true that I can spend whole night with somebody older than me. Maybe it is true that I am not afraid to drunk a day. Maybe it is true that I really want to dance in the rain. Well, what is maybe, it might be real. Yet I know that all of it is a possibilities problem.

Everybody make mistakes. Everybody learn to apologize. Everybody must forgive each other. Because everybody has chances

Just DON'T BE AFRAID of someone you love, BECAUSE THE LORD IS SAVING H(ER)IM FOR US. Believe it in your deepest heart.

Dear Romeo, It's been so long since we've talk. I know it was one week ago, and I've met you again. But for me it feels so long ago. I wish you know that I hope I can always say "Goodbye..." to your daylight, and say "Hello!" to your every night. Maybe I'm a perfectionist, maybe that was what they say about me, maybe everything you know about me, only the good ones is real. Dear Romeo, I know we're not like Romeo and Juliet. But, what happen around us makes it feel like that. And I hope not. I don't want us to falling apart. I used to tell myself that I'm not suit for you. Then I realized, how my dreams was directly sent me to you. Well, I trust to all of it, and all of those dreams are good dreams, and I really want you to know that I always bring it in my pray. If anybody else says "...if we doesn't meant to be, make us meant to be...", then I'll say "..thank you for put him into my life, and dear Jesus, please...

I never want to blame myself when I fell in love. I am so happy in those time. If Cinderella said "In dreams you will loose your heartache," then I say "In everytime you fall in love you're rising your heart in up high." When I fall in love, I don't what I have to say. I feel like all the words came out itself, and I don't care if I spell the wrong word. Love bring me happiness, love design my day so bright, love singing joyful to me every second. People asking me who's the lucky guy, I don't to tell. Well, once they asked me, "If you never tell, how will he knows that you love him?" I am not a type of attractive girl like 'that'. I love to treat him differently from other guy, I'd like to stay next to him when I met him. I love the way he stares with his heart. Yes, this guy is different, and I love him. But what most important is, the reason why I love him so in deep. First , he is in the same way with me. Second , he c...

Ezraya : "Why are you looking for me?" The girl : "Because you scared me to death if I ever lost you." Ezraya : "But I've just away for a second." The girl : "That time is the problem."

Living without you, is the hardest thing I ever had. Living without you is like dying forever. Living without you is something that I would never ask. Because I love you, I love you, and I love you.

Ketika aku jatuh cinta, aku menjadi rapuh. Aku bukan seorang aku lagi. Ketika aku jatuh cinta, segalanya berubah. Seolah teori, aku memandang dunia dengan kacamata lain. Aku menjadi rentan remuk. Ketika aku jatuh cinta, aku memperjuangkan segalanya untuk dia. Orang itu yang menyita sisa waktu hari-hariku. Aku tahu aku benci itu terjadi, tapi aku menikmatinya. Kurasa, itu bukan hal bodoh. Tapi... Ah, entahlah. Baru kali ini aku mampu mengutarakan bagaimana rasanya jatuh cinta. "Jantungku berdebar..." prosa itu benar. "Napasku tercekat..." puitis itu benar. "Dia ada di dalam kepalaku, dia ada di mana-mana..." Awalnya kupikir baik-baik, itu pengkiasan yang paling halus untuk mengungkapkan cinta dalam segala sastra. Tapi sekarang aku mengerti, semua itu nyata. Aku mendengarkan lagu cinta setiap hari. Aku membuat daftar lagu yang, bisa dibilang beralur. Aku memasang tentang dia dan indah melihatnya di baris depan. Aku meletakkan lagi sebatalyon pengenalan...

Whenever you happy, write. Whenever someone bring you down, write. Whenever you cry, write. Whenever you sad, write. Whenever the day feel rushed, write. Whenever you feel alone, write. Whenever you taking breath to relax, write. Whenever things broken, write. Whenever you don't know what to say, write. Whenever you confused, write. Whenever you try to smile, write. Whenever you laugh, write. Whenever you sing, write. Whenever you've no words to say, write. Whenever everything feels like rushing away, write. Whenever you try to stay calm, write. Whenever you mad, write. Whenever you dissapointed, write. Whenever you're curious about things, write. Whenever there's nothing important, write. Whenever you try to survive, write. Whenever you've got nothing, write. Whenever love burn you, write. Whenever no words to write, you're done.

Banyak laki-laki yang mengenal dengan baik, tapi tidak semuanya mengerti. Banyak perempuan yang peduli, tapi tidak semuanya menyayangi. Dan cinta menjadi logika yang tidak pernah aku mengerti.

I have nothing to say. No, it doesn't mean of speechless. I think I'm tired. I think I need more space for few days. Well, I actualy don't know what was my mind thinking, and I hope it wouldn't be bad. I like to keep silent whenever I feel down or feel nothing at all. I keep thinking of what am I gonna do on the next second. I keep planning it, those, and lot of stuffs. But I realized then, that I can't set my time for those plans. I would like to found a quiet place somewhere. Well, yeah I only want to find me with myself and Him. Just the two of us. Me with myself and Him . Because I know I can always turn back to Him to settled all of me there.

I really want to tell everything in here, in the world. I want to let all my mind thoughts out from my head. But I don't know how. Everytome I try to write, I forgot. But when I shut the phone down, I remember all the same way. I think I can't help myself for it...

April has done and the Red come. It never meant to be burn. But, I put every part of broken heart on red. I feel so broken. But I know, the more I am broken, the stronger I become. I never afraid of it, that's why I never let anybody knows. Eh, I mean, I'm happy enough to through it all. I met my old friend last month, all April I was with him. But then he suddenly left unsaid. We even haven't met for almost 4 years. When I said I loved it when I met him, he exit. I went home on Friday and got a bad news.  Oh dear, I have nothing to say than felt dying slowly. But I feel no sorrow at all. I am strong enough to walk through it. I guess, the fire has just burst. The sparks begin to touches everything. And I am going to let it burn. Let it burn because of me.

Well, sometimes I think that I had lose what I really want to have. I was so down whenever it comes to me. It was feel like, almost, like a pain. Only, a pain that I can never knew why does it dare enough to touch me. Have, in definition of mine is take a thing to be owned, will be the most quiet thing. What is...?! What am I talking about?! Wha-?! Oh, okay. Here's the thing. Lose something would never mean that I never deserve to have it. But it means that I deserve what better than that thing.

Every           -     Each Yes               -     No Choose       -     Picked Earth           -     Heaven Female        -     Male Good           -     Bad Left              -     Right Up                -     Down Number      -     Alphabet In                 -  ...

I used to tell myself not to start a page with "I don't know,..." and I hope I'm still hook on it. In this world, people born with their own gift. People are different, unchangeable, discomparably. But, why some people still be bad person for the others? What is the other persons' fault to them? Tell me, what? No one can answer. Beause humans are too seirously thinking about "How will I live better if..." and "How will I be the best of them all, if..." We get nothing if we do nothing. It is a quote of mine. As I know people have to work hard to survive living on this world. But, look at us. Today we're start to talking about the poor (of whealth, food, and good living depend on countries of domisile). We are heading to talk about it like we are the best people, the best person on earth who has THE ONLY 'BRAIN' which is capable to 'touch it' . We said that we fell sorry for other people, we fell awful for not being gr...

As the sun rise I start to open my new day As the moon went home I know he is still sleeping somewhere there As the stara still shine in early bird I realized everything... Almost But as the day has began All I can see is the power of love

Ezraya : "You're just an ordinary girl. What power do you have to save me?" The Girl : "Maybe you're right. But I do have a power. An eternal one." Ezraya : "..." The Girl : "I have 'I love you' for you, Ray." Ezraya : "... I almost desprate about it." The Girl : "Well, you have to learn to survive that love. Because I have been survived. It's always been survived." -Descendants

Happy Valentine's Day for everyone. Let the loves' sparks between us forever. -A

"Street Society" movie review would be appear here next week. Interested? Save the weekend.

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