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Aku Tahu

Meja-meja di ruang VIP Sekoci Hijau mulai ramai. Yah, tahu sendiri, lah, para perempuan rekan kolega kampusku, selalu bisa mendapatkan topik perbincangan yang layak diacungi jempol. Suasana yang menyenangkan, sebenarnya. Tapi jiwaku terlalu bodoh untuk menahan diri. Satu hal yang kadang membuatku terpuruk saat reuni seperti ini, ialah ingatan tentang masa laluku. Ketika aku berjanji pada perempuan yang paling aku cintai. Dia yang seharusnya menjadi ibu dari anakku ini, bukan sahabatnya. Tapi apa daya, aku terlibat dalam perjodohan untuk menyelamatkan bisnis keluarga. Walaupun aku tahu, prioritas yang dipertaruhkan waktu itu adalah keluarga kami, bukannya harta kekayaan. Lalu tangisan anakku membuyarkan semuanya. Tanda aku harus segera mengambilkan bantal gulingnya, dan, ASTAGA!! Apa yang barusan kutuang ke kopiku?! ***** Apa, sih, yang sedang kupik— Sebuah kalung nama mencuat dari jok belakang. Bukannya menemukan bantal dan guling, malah mendapatkan apa yang selalu menghant...
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The Same Him

So, I write again with all of my sadness Crawling into me. Everytime I wanna write, I go back on saying, "I'll be alright." Still, I looked around and saw him Then I began to asked myself, "Why always him? The that him?" I know that I realized he had changed. She matters to him a lot, That's why she will be everywhere he is. That's why she will be every moment he spent. That's why she is important to him, Since I left him. Somehow, I thought I was wrong on leaving. But the only reason was, He never had the ability to see me as who I am. Thus, he treated me like his past girls. Somewhat, I played sad song and told myself to let go. Because I've had enough. But I know I don't. The day I depart, Marked as the day I am nobody for him. The struggle is, Why can't he be the same for me? The same him, The one that I leave, The one that changed, became a better man, The one that I love the most. Oh, dear. ...
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Friendzone

Through windows I see sunlight. Through windows I see little reflrection. Through windows I see what's on the other side. Through windows I see what wheather is on. Through windows I see what I've been realizing all about: It is all wrapped up in one word,   #friendzone .
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Kita Sudah Selesai

#KitaSudahSelesai Satu per satu aku lepaskan Genangan rasa yang tak terelakkan, Mengerubungiku seperti langit mendung, Lama hingga tak kuat lagi aku membendung. Tak perlu lagi ada kata yang harus diucapkan. Tak perlu lagi ada janji yang harus diperjuangkan. Walaupun kita berdua sama-sama tahu Kita tidak pernah punya titik awal waktu itu Karena kita tumbuh di dalamnya Mengakar hingga tak juga ada Titik akhir untuk kita. #TentangKamu Kita berdua sama-sama tahu Aku sayang padamu Tapi tidak seperti kekasih, ya Bahkan aku tidak pernah sedikitpun untukmu ada cinta Begitupun kamu. Tapi lihat sekarang, sebuah luka baru Bagaimana kamu menghadapi aku Dengan bahasamu, tuturmu, sikapmu Memandangku sama seperti Gadis-gadismu di luar sana yang setengah mati Menanti sentuhanmu yang terkenal menggoda, Belaianmu yang terdengar menghanyutkan jiwa, Ciumanmu yang bagiku sama sekali Tidak menaklukkan. Tak peduli seberapa keras usahamu, teman, Tidak bisa terhadapku. Tidak dengan aku. #BukanHarapan Jika sua...
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What am I Running for?

Well I have so many thoughts that running inside my head. Yes, they are. Somehow I know too many question had risen from those thoughts, and when it about to came out, I realized I couldn't asked it, not to anyone. No, not because those are disqualified, but, well, I just can't drive it direct into what answer I was once looking for. Weird, isn't it? Or maybe just stupid enough? ... my fave answer for myself in every question that crossed the line is only, "I don't know," . Yeah, well, not really don't know what to answer, but even myself cannot recognize what things I am questioning about, in other hand, it is important for my basic knowledge. I have learned so many things about what formal education taught in curriculum. I have followed it all, but still it doesn't enough. Damn it. What am I running for? What am I trying to get to? ... or did I just miss-spelled?
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Coming Soon

All about poetry and poem collections are in line already to be published soon! Thanks for all support!
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Farewell

Look around, What do you see? It is all an empty ground Inside of me Listen well, What do you hear? An echo from my wishing well So loud, everywhere Smell this, What do you tasted? A burnt red rose fall to your knees That's the way you treat me, wasted Touch it, What can you guess? Those promises you gave, that lead Me being a total mess Hold on, Who else can you hold? Now I'm gone Leave you behind with sweet dreams I've ever told. -A
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