My Words My Melody

Through windows I see sunlight. Through windows I see little reflrection. Through windows I see what's on the other side. Through windows I see what wheather is on. Through windows I see what I've been realizing all about: It is all wrapped up in one word,   #friendzone .

#KitaSudahSelesai Satu per satu aku lepaskan Genangan rasa yang tak terelakkan, Mengerubungiku seperti langit mendung, Lama hingga tak kuat lagi aku membendung. Tak perlu lagi ada kata yang harus diucapkan. Tak perlu lagi ada janji yang harus diperjuangkan. Walaupun kita berdua sama-sama tahu Kita tidak pernah punya titik awal waktu itu Karena kita tumbuh di dalamnya Mengakar hingga tak juga ada Titik akhir untuk kita. #TentangKamu Kita berdua sama-sama tahu Aku sayang padamu Tapi tidak seperti kekasih, ya Bahkan aku tidak pernah sedikitpun untukmu ada cinta Begitupun kamu. Tapi lihat sekarang, sebuah luka baru Bagaimana kamu menghadapi aku Dengan bahasamu, tuturmu, sikapmu Memandangku sama seperti Gadis-gadismu di luar sana yang setengah mati Menanti sentuhanmu yang terkenal menggoda, Belaianmu yang terdengar menghanyutkan jiwa, Ciumanmu yang bagiku sama sekali Tidak menaklukkan. Tak peduli seberapa keras usahamu, teman, Tidak bisa terhadapku. Tidak dengan aku. #BukanHarapan Jika sua...

Well I have so many thoughts that running inside my head. Yes, they are. Somehow I know too many question had risen from those thoughts, and when it about to came out, I realized I couldn't asked it, not to anyone. No, not because those are disqualified, but, well, I just can't drive it direct into what answer I was once looking for. Weird, isn't it? Or maybe just stupid enough? ... my fave answer for myself in every question that crossed the line is only, "I don't know," . Yeah, well, not really don't know what to answer, but even myself cannot recognize what things I am questioning about, in other hand, it is important for my basic knowledge. I have learned so many things about what formal education taught in curriculum. I have followed it all, but still it doesn't enough. Damn it. What am I running for? What am I trying to get to? ... or did I just miss-spelled?

All about poetry and poem collections are in line already to be published soon! Thanks for all support!